I may have been a little harsh in last nights blog or explicitly honest, the truth is I'm hurting. How do you fall in love with someone in just two dates, one week, 6 dates, one month...one 4 hour texting session? How do you move on, when no matter how you feel, you know you can't be together. You don't want the same things, knowing you only feel this way a couple times in life...
Looking at my new six week old godson, you have to have hope. He is hope and so is his brother...
Tuesday, January 22, 2013
Monday, January 21, 2013
2013 Starts off with a bang...
Well, maybe not in the traditional sense. However, there was a little sex... :) And then there wasn't...
Okay, I just want to let you know this is not my best blog and probably not well written, but I am divulging my feelings, isn't that what blogs are for? Not sure really what I'm suppose to do with this besides treat it like a diary and give my friends a few laughs at my expense.
I just wanted to declare that 2013 started off pretty crappy, but I'm going to stay the course. I'm going to keep trying, keep trekinig and stay true to who I am.
Let's summarize 2012 and predict 2013....
2012, in order of guys:
C...again name not necessary, fucked around with him for a year when I wasn't ready to break another guy's heart. Wasn't suppose to get involved, 45 year old father of 2 sons in college, started to have feelings and that came to bite me in the ass (sorry not holding back in this post...if we can't be honest then ...I wanted kids and told him and he almost fell off of his stool, ha! I would have never trusted him. Best sex ever and he was really hot!
Taylor, great recently divorced, wait not finally divorced, very big, if you know what I mean. Sweet, kind of shy and nervous around me, clearly I was too much for him...
Brandt, awesome cute guy with absolutely no follow through, but we had one fun night which was mostly banter. I haven't spoken to him in two months and he texts me last weekend to wish me a happy new year...what is with guys?
Ed, took me out for a fun night, but friends with C and eventually pissed my couch, oops I mean Bridget's couch, ha! No I'm not in college, he just has some issues.
RK, has a daughter who is 12 who he is totally dedicated to, which is attractive, but he doesn't have much time and he is too old because he doesn't want kids and he broke my heart...part of the crappy part of 2013...why do I always fall for the wrong guys? Please if you have answers, help me!
Then there is Robert...he is going back to school at University of Wyoming to finish his undergraduate degree at the age of 40 and he's perfect, right out of a catalog. Okay that might be an exaggeration. Handsome, tall, sweet, giving, healthy, does yoga every morning, but I hurt him once and he wants another try. I'm going to give it to him another shot, but I'm nervous that I'm forcing it. So I'm making this pledge to my nearest and dearest.
I am turning 32 in 3 weeks and I'm not where I thought I'd be, career or family, but that's life. I need your help to keep me honest with myself. I know I really want to be married and to have kids, but the first part is really out of my control. Like I said, I'm going to keep trying, keep drudging through the mud, try to remain positive, stay true to myself and have hope. If you have any advice I welcome it.
Okay, back to my Rom Com. Ha! I should probably work, whatever!
Kate
Okay, I just want to let you know this is not my best blog and probably not well written, but I am divulging my feelings, isn't that what blogs are for? Not sure really what I'm suppose to do with this besides treat it like a diary and give my friends a few laughs at my expense.
I just wanted to declare that 2013 started off pretty crappy, but I'm going to stay the course. I'm going to keep trying, keep trekinig and stay true to who I am.
Let's summarize 2012 and predict 2013....
2012, in order of guys:
C...again name not necessary, fucked around with him for a year when I wasn't ready to break another guy's heart. Wasn't suppose to get involved, 45 year old father of 2 sons in college, started to have feelings and that came to bite me in the ass (sorry not holding back in this post...if we can't be honest then ...I wanted kids and told him and he almost fell off of his stool, ha! I would have never trusted him. Best sex ever and he was really hot!
Taylor, great recently divorced, wait not finally divorced, very big, if you know what I mean. Sweet, kind of shy and nervous around me, clearly I was too much for him...
Brandt, awesome cute guy with absolutely no follow through, but we had one fun night which was mostly banter. I haven't spoken to him in two months and he texts me last weekend to wish me a happy new year...what is with guys?
Ed, took me out for a fun night, but friends with C and eventually pissed my couch, oops I mean Bridget's couch, ha! No I'm not in college, he just has some issues.
RK, has a daughter who is 12 who he is totally dedicated to, which is attractive, but he doesn't have much time and he is too old because he doesn't want kids and he broke my heart...part of the crappy part of 2013...why do I always fall for the wrong guys? Please if you have answers, help me!
Then there is Robert...he is going back to school at University of Wyoming to finish his undergraduate degree at the age of 40 and he's perfect, right out of a catalog. Okay that might be an exaggeration. Handsome, tall, sweet, giving, healthy, does yoga every morning, but I hurt him once and he wants another try. I'm going to give it to him another shot, but I'm nervous that I'm forcing it. So I'm making this pledge to my nearest and dearest.
I am turning 32 in 3 weeks and I'm not where I thought I'd be, career or family, but that's life. I need your help to keep me honest with myself. I know I really want to be married and to have kids, but the first part is really out of my control. Like I said, I'm going to keep trying, keep drudging through the mud, try to remain positive, stay true to myself and have hope. If you have any advice I welcome it.
Okay, back to my Rom Com. Ha! I should probably work, whatever!
Kate
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